Once and for all

Don’t you just love weblogs? Whenever there’s an issue, I can always go back to it and smile while I vindicate myself 🙂

A friend posted in her blog how someone she doesn’t know messaged her out of the blue in her Friendster account to engage in some mundane chitchat, only to find out that she ended up talking about me and pertaining to an issue that’ s supposed to have been resolved ages ago.

Before I continue, I would like to refer you to past posts for the lowdown of what has happened…

Then, I will continue on what has happened since then and what will happen now – once and for all.

No names will be mentioned as usual, since I still want to be a good person and give the individual a chance to back-off.

What Happened?

Here’s how it started

Here’s how it supposed to have ended

What’s Happening?

So it was supposed to be over right? I mean she had already admitted everything, regardless of how retarded the story was. If she wanted that kind of a freaky back-story is her problem and as long as she changes after that, then I wouldn’t care.

Time passed by, and everything seemed to be going well. I even noticed that she wanted to add me as a friend on Friendster#[1], which I approved since she seemed to be “behaving.” She also mentioned that she has found the culprit! You know, the one who hijacked her account?#[2] Anyways, I didn’t care what the reason was at this point, just that it’s over.

But then she messaged me about a message I sent her – which I recalled to be a message I sent to her account waaaay before the “issue” got started. It was basically because of a post in the guestbook telling me that that my [publicly mentioned] sites were “vulnerable.” If you dig down the book, you’ll still find it there I believe.

Of course security concerns isn’t something you merely brush away regardless of how confident you are. Hence I indeed messaged her asking her what vulnerabilities she has found (if any) so that I may try to fix them. She never answered back until that one day, waaaay after the “issue” has been “resolved,” implying that I was trying to mess around and dig up the past for kicks.

I explained to her to check the date on that message (which was a Friendster message) and notice how long ago that was. And that it probably was just lagged, and could be disregarded. Hell, I even apologized for the inconvenience since not only did I want to go back there anymore, I had a feeling that she simply wanted to bait me for another round of “attention.”

Then time passed once more, which was good since I finally can put this to rest… until yesterday when my friend messaged me about the culprit’s message to her – which mentioned me and the issue yet again! The english is really fucked up (there, I finally said it ‘cuz I don’t care anymore) so my friend couldn’t tell exactly what she was implying, so she just forwarded me the whole message. I put in the part which pertained to me… which interestingly was 70% of the message.

Here it is:

extraneous text edited out I’d to take this opportunity just kindly tel to carlo neighbor nya cousin ko after nya sabihan schizo something like that but the issue is closed then buti nagstop na sya kakasent p.m sa yahoomail ko#[3] about vulnerabilities 12 times ko kaya nareceive yun from. feb.19,2005 up to july something using bpsite then when I confront him and sent a p.m ang nasabi nya pasensya na last year pa daw yun, ano hindi sya aware but I don’t like the issue to become too big kase my brother advice me and some colleagues to not discuss it I think somehow they got their point . I know you have an idea what is it

may you add also pansinin nya his personal blog + bp website dba there’s unusual thing going on when we check it + some of my friends w/IT business, stop dragging my name pakisabi carlo ‘coz 1 of my good friend from pathway education office of the president@admu heard it that he’s spreading a news like that he doesn’t know me + my parents & my brother are active alumni of admu#[4] extraneous text edited out

Almost makes you wonder if she indeed studied in Ateneo right? You know how picky the school is with regards to english and writing. Unless of course she was/is an indispensable varsity player.

Anyways that’s not the point. My point is this is the end, I don’t want to deal with this anymore so I’m taking the gloves off, no more Mr. “tactfulness.” I’m calling it out as I see it and do not care if I missed the mark or not.

I have given her ages to explain herself and only got a story that I couldn’t swallow (the whole threatening of her family to “observe” me thing, etc. etc.) I still have that email handy in case it has to be brought in public to prove my point. I have nothing to hide, I have no problem in being transparent because I can show everything from day 1 – you name it, I have it. On the other hand, you’ll see that all her excuses are always ambiguous.

• She mentions vulnerabilities/problems with the sites, but never was helpful enough to say what they were. If you wanted to be constructive by telling me that my sites weren’t secure, then you should tell me the details and not just say “hey, your site isn’t secure.” That reeks of malicious intent, or simply suggests that you don’t know what the hell you’re talking about (which is probably the case).
• I challenged her to prove my sites’ “vulnerabilities” – like hijack my account totally to get my attention. Which she never did… instead, she tells me [when I was on to her] that her account has been hijacked and that’s the whole reason the issue got to this point.
• She mentioned people hearing me say this or that from here or there, but never says who they are, and where they were even privately to me (should she want to protect their identity). For all I know they were inventing stuff as I’m not in Ateneo often, I’m a person who hated the school, so I only go there when I need to and not just to relish the campus of my accursed college days.
• She mentions her cousin being my neighbor after calling her a schizo? Where is this cousin? Why hasn’t he/she talked to me to explain your side all this time?
• Her stories obviously tend to change all the time and are either contradicting, or dubiously convenient. But most of the time they are too far-fetched to be true (that she was hacked, the threats to her family, etc.).
• She says to my friends about me spreading whatever, when she doesn’t tell me herself about the issue. She was decent enough to ask about that message right? I didn’t bite her head of right? So what makes the “other” rumors so different that she has to go behind my back now?
• et cetera, et cetera

And looking back, the past post already mentioned that she was coerced… but now her messages claim she’s been hijacked again? Which is it?

My point is, that no matter what the truth may be now, she has made it simply impossible for me (or anyone else in the know) to trust whatever comes out of her mouth (or keyboard for that matter). As such I simply don’t want any part of it anymore.

What happens now?

I may be wrong, I may be right, but as of this day, here are my steps to end this once and for all:

I dub thee psycho, schizo, obsessed maniac, freak, and whatever the hell other freakish terms that come into my mind.

I will not talk to and about you ever, unless someone asks – and I will in turn, reserve the right to paint you in any light I wish for the simple reason that you never wanted to clarify things beyond reasonable doubt.

The only way I can accept your story as the truth is if you prove it beyond reasonable doubt.#[5] If you mentioned your family, I’d like to speak with them. You mention your brothers, IT colleagues, cousins, etc. etc. I’d like to speak with them.

Surely what I just said may have aroused some anger from your family or friends… tell them (your cousin especially) to feel free to express him/herself to me in person.

And internet correspondence is out of the question. They have to be in the flesh, preferably showing documents proving that they are indeed the people you claim to be and not just scrubs that are crazy as you. I would like to see your dog “nargalzius,”#[6] and have your proven family concur your claims.

This is how far you have to go to redeem whatever it is you want to redeem from me. Otherwise, be content in the fact that I will consider you to be the lying, contriving, scheming, obsessed, crazy bitch that you are. I have no guilt whatsoever in viewing you as such at this juncture.

If you are hurt by my statements, then tough luck! you had your chance to come clean but I can only bend so far.

And just so you know, I choose my friends wisely, so it would be futile of you to try to destroy my reputation with them. They know that I’m capable of being something worse than what you can possibly imagine, but not ever in the way that you claim me to be. I’m not that low.

And if you try going for my mere “aquaintances,” then go on ahead, it’s not like I care about what they think, but most probably they won’t believe you either.

And feel free to let even your parents read this post as I’m sure they will agree with me since all my deductions to this point have been reasonable – and not even God can blame me for thinking ill of you (given all the circumstances) at this point in time.

I feel sorry for you that you don’t have a life and find solace in getting attention from others regardless of the kind of attention it may be. My friends tell me that you may even be pleased in a way#[7] that I’m wasting my time and energy giving you this attention you soooo do not deserve.

But I’m just saying once and for all, this is the last straw. Find another person to bother, cuz starting today, I refuse to acknowledge your existence in this world.

Have a nice day in that “world” of yours (which I’m sure only your kind can relate to).

[1]: I don’t check my Friendster account anymore since last year, but the system does email me when there are stuff I need to address like messages, friend requests, etc. That’s when I login to do some “maintenance.” [2]: Nevermind the fact that she already claimed in her letter that she had been behind it all, but was COERCED into doing it (her family threatened too to boot!). [3]: She is pertaining to that message I sent asking her about “vulnerabilities.” I NEVER emailed her yahoo account (to the best of my recollection, I could be wrong though). I’m pretty sure it was a Friendster message because it had the same email registered from the guestbook entry in question (which incidentally, was a yahoo email address). [4]: Now after squinting on the horrible sentence construction I THINK she meant that I was spreading news about her, even if I didn’t know her (even if the sentence may read that I spread news that I knew her but was denying any knowledge of her). [5]: Which to me, means explaining every goddamn detail of your excuses for me to double check their credibility [6]: The naming of which you claimed to have no connection whatsover to me [7]: You know, the SICK, TWISTED, DISGUSTING sort that is usually reserved for loonies.