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Half Full indeed

It’s amazing how being positive and hopeful can make a difference in one’s disposition and actual reality.

I remember just a week ago when I was wallowing in self-pity, how all the “hassles” I’ve been experiencing suddenly added up and seemed so insurmountable. Now that I’ve gone back to my “usual” disposition, 1 Which consists of two things: one, believing that the world doesn’t owe us any favors, and the other is to see life as half-full instead of empty I couldn’t believe that not only has a huge weight been lifted from me, but also that my actual problems suddenly sorted themselves out!

One example is my concern that I may have kidney stones – just got the results and I’m clean! Still hasn’t explained the high Erythrocyte count on my urine, but again, I’m happy to know that my worries there have been blown out of proportion. Read More

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⇡1 Which consists of two things: one, believing that the world doesn’t owe us any favors, and the other is to see life as half-full instead of empty
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Soldiering through

Various “recent events” that have transpired have put me in a depressive mood lately. Fortunately I was able to catch myself and get back on track. The reason for my recovery, self-serving as it may be, would be my old “perspective” posts 😉

It seems that I have allowed myself to become a person of self-pity at some point, which is a tragedy in so many ways. 1 Because people know me not to be that type of person.

For one, considering one’s-self as a “victim” is one of my pet peeves – women are usually the culprits of these emotions, but I had realized that my self-loathing had quite frankly, turned me into a woman in a sense. Can you imagine that? Me, acting like a woman – oh the shame! And that’s exactly how I felt when I realized it; embarrased/ashamed. I couldn’t believe that I allowed myself to be caught in such a state. Nahiya ako sa sarili ko – as it were.

But to save you from all the link-bait, the bottom-line is that I simply re-discovered what I had already known and practiced; that the world doesn’t owe us any favors, we just deal with the cards we’re dealt with – and hope for the best.

Or as House would put it:

People get what they get. It has nothing to do with what they deserve.

So having come to terms with reality, I decided to take my own advice, and return to my “core” – and it has done me a great deal of good 🙂 I now find solace in the mere fact that if there was anything in my power I could do to change my situation, I already have done, am doing, or intend to do it. 2 assuming there’s something I’m still missing I’ve done my part, and that gives me the peace of mind I need to get through all this even if nothing “changes.”

That, and some retail therapy! Read More

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⇡1 Because people know me not to be that type of person.
⇡2 assuming there’s something I’m still missing
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Pain

Last night was the second time I experienced a weird pain on my lower back. In case it’s relevant, the first experience, coincidentally, happened at around the same time (about after midnight) a few days before. I’m just glad it didn’t happen when we were out of town for a show.

I’m having trouble describing the pain; I guess it’s like a mild cramp… but more akin to a very bad case of “kabag” (gas) – only it’s on my lower back (Is that even possible?)

The pain was severe enough to keep me awake all night; no matter what position I shifted to couldn’t alleviate it. And it wasn’t something I could ignore – I had to move because if I laid still – it would get too painful. That experience would last for about an hour, then disappear.

I’m wondering if I should have this checked. Very weird.

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At what cost

In light of a certain “issue,” I recalled a song I wrote in the past.

It had a fairly “generic” message I guess, but I couldn’t help but feel how apt the message could be for both sides – how both indecision and closed-mindedness don’t lead anywhere productive. If we all had the mindset of what the song had suggested, we could’ve avoided it altogether (wether it be by one side acting sooner, or the other simply being more receptive)

Lyrics here

I just felt the need to vent out my frustrations because of how long the negative energy was allowed to “fester” before it was finally addressed (not to mention what it took to actually address it). Relationships had been needlessly strained because of the shortcomings of both sides, that much is certain.

In any case, the worst seems to be over… but at what cost? (sigh)

Don’t you just hate how true the term “hindsight is always 20/20” is most of the time?

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My Sporty Valentine

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Yes, you were supposed to sing the title to the tune of My Funny Valentine – FAIL >:(

All the same, this Valentine’s day was pretty unique for Cris and myself.

Bruno, Len, Elaine, Paul, Len’s cousins and their respective significant others had joined The North Face couple’s run which was held early today at Nuvali. They (the runners) had planned to crash at Bruno’s Tagaytay home right before the race (since the race started 6am the next day)

Since Cris, Mara, Mark, Alan, Teejay and myself thought that we could bike in the area while the runners did their thing, Cris and I decided to bring our bikes and tag along to Tagaytay and meet up with the rest of the bikers during the event. Read More