Various “recent events” that have transpired have put me in a depressive mood lately. Fortunately I was able to catch myself and get back on track. The reason for my recovery, self-serving as it may be, would be my old “perspective” posts 😉
It seems that I have allowed myself to become a person of self-pity at some point, which is a tragedy in so many ways. 1 Because people know me not to be that type of person.
For one, considering one’s-self as a “victim” is one of my pet peeves – women are usually the culprits of these emotions, but I had realized that my self-loathing had quite frankly, turned me into a woman in a sense. Can you imagine that? Me, acting like a woman – oh the shame! And that’s exactly how I felt when I realized it; embarrased/ashamed. I couldn’t believe that I allowed myself to be caught in such a state. Nahiya ako sa sarili ko – as it were.
But to save you from all the link-bait, the bottom-line is that I simply re-discovered what I had already known and practiced; that the world doesn’t owe us any favors, we just deal with the cards we’re dealt with – and hope for the best.
Or as House would put it:
People get what they get. It has nothing to do with what they deserve.
So having come to terms with reality, I decided to take my own advice, and return to my “core” – and it has done me a great deal of good 🙂 I now find solace in the mere fact that if there was anything in my power I could do to change my situation, I already have done, am doing, or intend to do it. 2 assuming there’s something I’m still missing I’ve done my part, and that gives me the peace of mind I need to get through all this even if nothing “changes.”
That, and some retail therapy! Read More