I always suffer from “early stage fright.” It’s the state of pure fear when you first stand in front of an audience singing something for the first time in your life.<\/p>\n
I was in numerous bands both in highschool and college. I compose and sing my own songs. My friends say I have a decent voice.<\/p>\n
Then why the hell do I suffer from such a fear? I really don’t get it.<\/p>\n
Some members of BP<\/a> sang at some sort of Catholic Congress at the World Trade Center (Roxas) for a mass that hosted about 4 thousand<\/em> priests. None<\/em> of the celebrants knew the priest’s part of “Panginoon Maawa Ka,” and guess who had to stand up in front of 4 thousand priests, and TV cameras, with his big hair and pimple-ridden face on the wide screen projector.<\/p>\n During practices, I had no problems singing the part since I thought “hey, i’m just filling in, this if for the Priest. Don’t sweat it.” And before I got up the podium, I was even convincing myself that I was still fine.<\/p>\n Deep inside. I arrogantly thought that “skill-wise, I don’t have to wory about anyone inside this place.” That at the very least,<\/em> I was one of the better singers in that place.<\/p>\n Was it suddenly seeing a sea of faces? Or maybe it was the fact it was my first time singing that blasted song in that context. Whatever it was, I didn’t enjoy it. As I sung, I could hear my voice trembling and it’s funny that I’m saying to myself “stop shaking.” Though my body wasn’t shaking, my notes were right, but the air<\/em> coming out of my mouth was shaking. AAAARRRRGHH!<\/strong><\/p>\n